Re-evaluating My Motives / Life Update (Where have I been?)
Wednesday, August 5, 2015
"I glorified You on the earth, having accomplished the work which, You have given me to do" -John 17:4
I am going to be completely transparent:
I have come to understand that not everything I have my mind set on can play out exactly as I expect.
I have come to understand that sometimes what I want in life is not what is actually in store for my future.
I have come to understand that sometimes my mind strays away from it's usual route.
I have come to understand that sometimes distractions come and take away from my goals.
I am stubborn.
I am easily confused.
I am far away from where I want to be.
I am weird, when I don't understand things.
I have an eye for creating.
I have an eye for compassion.
I have an eye for love.
My heart and mind are set out to know more.
My heart and mind are set out to explore.
I fear rejection.
I fear isolation.
I fear living the same day over and over again for the rest of my life.
I fear the thoughts of others towards me.
But in the end, I still choose to trust.
I choose to trust the One who created me.
I choose to trust that He is taking me where I need to be.
Because it is in Him that I find continual peace for my present, acceptance of my past, and hope for my future.
I have had a blank space in my brain for the longest time, in regards to content for this blog. I have had many ideas, but I have been unable to write. Why? I have no idea. I then realized that maybe my mind wasn't where it needed to be. I pray constantly for the gift the Lord has given me. I pray that He expands it and makes it better. I pray that He uses it at all times. I pray that He uses this blog to speak and reach out to others, and I constantly pray for Him to open doors for me.
Sometimes I find that my mind is so focused on other things. It is time for me to reevaluate my purpose. I love having this blog. I love having any sort of creative outlet. It is heart warming and relaxing. But what good is this if I am not using it to do the Lord's work.
I don't know if you have ever felt like you have strayed away from God's plan, but that is exactly what I feel. I reached out to a few of my blogging friends, and I thank the Lord that I am part of such an inspiring group of Christian bloggers. One of my blogging friends mentioned that I should pray to the Lord for direction.
God is happy with my accomplishments. What parent is not happy when their child succeeds. I just think that He probably wants me to exalt Him in my accomplishments as much as I can. With much meditation on His word, I am rejuvenated and ready to take on the blogging world all over again.
I thank Him for giving me the spirit of creativity, and ask Him to awaken and strengthen this quality in me as much as He can. If you too are finding it hard these days to get a single post out, Look inwardly and reevaluate your motives. Sometimes our mind gets so caught up in the what could be, that we miss out on our overall mission statement for what we do.
Stay positive, breathe, relax, and create because that is exactly what you were called to do.